What could these symptoms mean?
Even when there's no one else at home, I constantly feel like someone is staring at me with contempt. It's not like a ghostly feeling or anything supernatural—it's more like people I know in real life are watching me. I don't know exactly who it is, but I feel their gaze, full of disgust, as if they're looking at a bug or something.
Because of this, I find myself desperately wishing someone would reassure me or give me a comforting hug. To cope, I even create imaginary characters using pillows or cushions and hug them tightly just to calm myself down.
Sometimes, without even realizing it, I end up muttering things like, 'You stupid idiot,' or 'You're worthless,' while sighing deeply and insulting myself.
What might this condition be? I'm currently looking into seeing a professional about it.